End

Bigsun-the blog has run it's course.

I am posting here now: communityIS

I started Bigsun several years ago. My life is different now, I am a different person, and a different christian. communityIS________ will be a journal of my assimilation back into the life of a small group participant. When God took all of the commitments and useless activities I spent my previous christian existance adhereing to, I desparately missed losing the community of fellow believers. communityIS______ will hopefully be some small indication of how strong those living in Christian Community can be.

Bigsun-signing off.....

Haloscan commenting and trackback have been added to this blog.

Utility Bill

So our Budget Billing went up 52 dollars per month on this months BGE bill. That is a 50% increase. Ouch......

Hours Chang

Okay my hours have changed. Instead of getting up dreadfully early, I am now getting up dang early. New hours are 6am-2pm. Gives me a few more hours for family in the evening. Good deal.

New Blog Link

This really isn't my new blog, but... here is a link to another blog I have started

St.C&L Railroad

BoneHead of the week.

This guy was hired to teach children spanish. Now he is unemployed, thank God.


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Worship Team

Although this was my last weekend "off" from playing drums for the worship team, I was asked to fill in this morning for the regularly scheduled drummer.

It was a rocky experience at best. I am not sure what really went wrong. I had played with the bassist several times before, and we groove pretty well together. However new singers and a new guitairist were a little hard to stay on the same wavelength with. I usually don't get too worked up about the way I play. In fact there have been absolutely horrible lapses in musical capability which I have been the cornerstone (no pun intended)and I have lived to tell about them. Today bothered me, I could have offered much more that I provided.

Stressful Week

Wow, and I glad it's Sunday. It's been a stressful week.

My first graduate level paper is due at midnight tonight. I have my second revised draft completed, and awaiting a final proofreading in a few hours. Should have it submitted by 9:00pm. I don't remember thinking this hard as an undergraduate, perhaps that was the cause of my low B average. I have spent at least 25 hours on this project this week. I am not scared by this, however, I have come to a major conclusion; I need to get used to reading.

Fuzzy

In September 1998,Lynn and I walked into a very strange place, church. We weren't really all that christian. We were the statistic, we professed to be christian, but only went to church on the big 2 (christmas, easter). But that saturday we walked into a community that the likes of which have never been duplicated. We meet real people, real walks of faith, and real acceptance. As the next 6 years rolled on, I lost touch a bit with the real reason that community was so strong. Soon the community was a chore, work, a drag. We needed to leave it...

I have a really good friend who is moving away this weekend. Thats a real drag, but a really good opportunity awaits him, so I wish him well. New Hope had a party for them last week so we attented services and the party that followed. So back into New Hope we walked again, as we did in 1998. The community is still strong, the players are different, the message is the same.

I told a friend this week that there is a certain part of us that expects an organization to struggle in our departed absence. I am happy to report this is not the case at New Hope. They are thriving, they always have, and it had absolutly nothing to do with me. Perhaps that was my problem all along. Perhaps it was about me the Smallgroupleaderpastorselectionteamcochairpersonyouthleaderdrummer.

Some of the fondest memories of my adult life we with the community of New Hope. I really screwed that up.

Selfishness is a nasty thing.........